DAMN IT!

I wake up today at 10:??am thinking very strongly and irrationally: I WANT A BOYFRIEND!!!

How come butt ugly girls get boyfriends. Like 3 boyfriends. WHY? WHY? WHY?

Here's an example: the J-girl's bestfriend. Gawd. It's not like she's pretty. Or nice. But she gets OK boyfriends. Well her boyfriend right now is OK, maybe the last two were just fine, and the first one left her for a goddess anyhows. Well, whatever. A boyfriend's still a boyfriend.


Shoot me.


I JUST WANT A GREAT GUY. Please.


Every single day is empty. Empty. Difficult. Hurtful.

Uhhuh. EVERY SINGLE DAY.

Which is why I'm compromising myself. Because I'm tired of empty. It's been, what? 8 month godfuckingdamnit!


Yooohooo!! Law of attraction! I WANT A BOYFRIEND. A NORMAL ONE. IS ANYONE EVEN LISTENING TO ME?!?!? SOME GREAT GUY TO LOVE. HELLOO!?!?

My standards have already become so looow, because I am needy for company. Especially now that I'm on academic break and have nothing to keep me busy. Stupid fuck. What is wrong with this world?

Why did the media have to decieve us that finding a great guy is so easy, when here I am, begging, scratching, PRAYING for one?

What is wrong with this world? Why did I have to be single, have the nicest person I've ever met as my ex-boyfriend, when everyone now is pat of a couple? I've never thought I'll be in such a desperate situation. It sucks.

I really do want to cry.

AND NO, LOVES. IT IS NOT SHALLOW! BELIEVE ME. WHEN YOU WAKE UP PISSED OFF AT LIFE FOR BEING ALONE WHEN YOU KNOW HOW GREAT YOU ARE, YOU'LL GET PISSED OFF TOO!



I know he doesn't have to be perfect, because if you love someone, you forget all imperfection, and just love. BUT CAN'T HE BE A GREAT GUY FOR ME. PLEASE?

Can't I just love?

I AM NOT BEING IMPATIENT. I AM BEING DEMANDING BECAUSE I DESERVE ONE AND NO ONE'S AROUND. FUCCCKK! I HATE THIS.