2013

It haunted me for 5 years... and I regretted having done it for 5 years. But now in the present I'm happy that I did gain myself. I wish it took a year to do it though and less hassle and heartbreak... but here we are.

I don't know whether I'll be having a break-up or make-up the next few days. I know that a break-up would be nice. It'd be a vacation from the whole year I spent crying. But I also know that he's a good guy so yeah time for the "non-doing".

I spent the whole day getting better with the whole idea though. Yes, that's a whole day of salary for a clear mind. As of 8:42pm, I am magically calm. The facts are that a lot of people goes through this, has gone through this and the whole humanity will go through this helps. (thanks experienceproject.com)

Also I might as well as act differently now. I can't change him.. all I can change is myself. Maybe this will inspire a change in him, maybe it won't... but to change my actions at this stage is so much better than being the overbearing "better half" that I was being.


Also from reading "Women Men Love, Women Men Leave" I think I'm doing a good job. I am claiming what I know I deserve.

Also I love that Love was discussed there as a natural occurrence and not just some magic that happens to a handful of lucky people.