Forgive and love and cherish yourself.

Give up M. Please just give up. For your sake. Just give up. Please.

Remember this moment. You told yourself that if that anger shit ever happens again, you're just done. And it did. Now it's done.


You don't care about what the world thinks.
You no longer care about the investment.


Please expect the worst for you on his side. He's on his way to Zambales to get away from you. He will talk to you 6 months from now. You will very slowly remove every trace of togetherness and you just cant and wont be able to believe that you have for the past 2 years spent it lovingly with this man.

He will have a girlfriend, he will be happy.

It doesn't matter if you're pretty. See how many other pretty girls are out there.

What matters is for what's left of you, the tons of it, you will be happy with it. You will continue growing and you won't stop loving the people around you.


You will no longer have all those anxious months.


There is no doubt that you have loved each other as much as you could... But if it's not working, it's not working.





Please give up. Please lose your phone. Please don't facebook for a week. Please celebrate your birthdays with your family.

Please love yourself. Love will flow freely from you. It's just not meant to be. Yes, you could have worked it out, but it's not worth the stress of everyday.

There is no anger, there should not be regret. There is NO regret.


If you remember this moment and start doubting yourself of your could haves... you have yielded to so many could haves before this that it just had to stop. You can no longer tolerate the pain of waiting and of not knowing.

He's fine, you're fine, you both loved completely, you're both tired. You're both wrong, you're both tired. You both said things you don't mean. You both still love each other as much as young hearts can... but you're both going to move on, because the relationship has become poisonous.

He's a good catch, and so are you.